i experience new things everyday. today i saw a car accident on the road. 30 odd people who were recklessly trying to cross the road but the man in the lights was the red one! many cars were rightfully driving through the road, and since the whole group were standing at different points of the stretch, one of them were bound to get hit. a taxi knocked into a man, and he fell down. but apparently, it was nothing serious, and he stood up and carried on walking. me standing by the side of the road waiting for the green man, i was stunned! frankly speaking, ever since i came here, i have been very traumatised by the road conditions. everyday, i will see at least 10 cases of near accidents. and i must say it is the fault of both parties, the driver and pedestrian. no one seem to have a care for traffic lights, and they drive and turn and walk like they have nine lives. initially, i would often almost get hit because i didn�t noticed cars or bicycles turning (the direction of turns is opposite that of singapore), or i haven�t seen the cars driving from behind me in the alleyways (who has eyes behind?) now, i get so scared my whole mind is focused on the roads the moment i come out from home or office. i don�t even try to talk, because i cannot be distracted. it�s a very deep sense of insecurity, knowing you may be knocked down anytime. and that makes me feel very unsafe all the time. my housemates laughed at me and told me i will get used to this. i think i am really not street smart at all. hmm, i feel that i am like a protected animal let out in the wild for the first time. because in singapore, everything is very properly structured and nice, and you can complain about anything that doesn�t follow the rules and law. here, people live by very different rules, they really live differently! they are competitive, and mean (really really rude, i must say). they really cut queues everywhere! no one queue i joined was not cut!! i was very very angry, but being so well-protected and follow-the-rules all my life, it is not in my instincts to cut queues, or be rude. i can only tell myself to just accept things, and live with it. this is really an eye-opener, and a good learning experience . i was actually quite sick of my housemates, and decided to go shopping alone today. but i was so traumatised by what i saw, plus i lost my way, that i could only take a cab back. sigh! i really don�t like to be very dependent on people, but now, i have to be dependent on my two i-cannot-clique-with-them housemates. plus they are guys! how to hang out with them?!?! i really hope to get used to things faster. how i wish i were more adaptable and streetsmart. sigh! i guess some things no one can teach me. only me, and me alone, can learn and help myself.